Saturday, 9 August 2014

Charles Bukowski - "the bluebird"

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pour whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

Charles Bukowski - "the word"

there was Auden, I don't remember
which small room I first read him
in
and there was Spender and I don't
know which small room
either
and then there was Ezra
and I remember that room
there was a torn screen
that the flies came through
and it was Los Angeles
and the woman said to me,
"Jesus Christ, you reading those
Cantos again!"
she liked e. e. cummings, though,
she thought he was really
good and she was
right.

I remember when I read Turgenev,
though, I had just come out of the
drunk tank and I was living
alone
and I thought he was really a
subtle and funny son of a
bitch.

Hemingway I read everywhere,
sometimes a few times over
and he made me feel brave
and tough
until one day
it all just stopped cold for me
and worse than that,
Ernie became an
irritant.

My Jeffers period was sometime
in Los Angeles, some room, some
job,
the same woman was back
and she said,
"Jesus, how can you read this
crap?"
one time when she was gone
I found many magazines
under the bed.
I pulled them out
and found that the contents were
all about murder
and it was all about women
who were tortured, killed,
dismembered and so
forth with the
lurid photos
in black and
white.
that stuff wasn't for
me.

my first encounter with Henry
Miller was via paperback
on a bus through Arizona.
he was great when he stuck
to reality
but when he got ethereal
when he got to philosophizing
he got as dry and boring as
the passing
landscape.
I left him in the men's crapper
at a hamburger
stop.

I got hold of Celine's Journey
and read it straight through
while in bed eating crackers.
I kept reading, eating the
crackers and reading, reading,
laughing out loud,
thinking, at last I've met a man
who writes better than
I.
I finished the book and then
drank much water.
the crackers swelled up
inside of me
and I got the worst
god damned stomach
ache of my
life.

I was living with my first
wife.
she worked for the L.A.
Sheriff's Dept.
and she came in to
find me doubled up
and moaning.

"Oh, what happened?"

"I've just read the world's
greatest
writers!"

"But you said you were."

"I'm second, baby . . ."

I read F. D.'s Notes from the
Underground
in a small El Paso
library
after sleeping the night
on a park bench
during a sand
storm.
after reading that book
I knew I had a long way
to go as a
writer.

I don't know where I read
T. S. Eliot.
he made a small dent
which soon ironed
out.

there were many rooms,
many books,
D. H. Lawrence, Gorky,
A. Huxley, Sherwood
Anderson, Sinclair Lewis,
James Thurber, Dos Passos,
etc
Kafka.
Schopenhauer, Nietzsche,
Rabelais.
Hamsun.

as a very young man
I worked as a shipping clerk,
made the bars at night,
came into the roominghouse,
went to bed
and read the
books.
 I had 3 or 4 of them in
bed with me (what a
man!) and then I would
sleep.

my landlady finally told
me, "You know, you read those
books in bed and about every
hour or so one of them will
fall to the floor.
You are keeping everybody
awake!"

(I was on the 3rd floor.)

what days and nights those
were.

now I can't read anything,
not even the newspaper.
and, of course, I can't watch
tv except for the boxing
matches.
I do hear some news
on the car radio
while driving the freeway
and waiting for the
traffic
reports.

but you know, by former
life as a bibliophile, it
possibly kept me from
murdering somebody,
myself
included.
it kept me from being an
industrialist.
it allowed me to endure
some women
that most men would never
be able to live
with.
it gave me space, a
pause.
it helped me to write
this.

(in this room,
like the other rooms)

perhaps for some young man
now
needing
to laugh at the
impossibilities
which are here
always
after we are
not.

Platoon (1986)

Another impressive war film, Oliver Stone, Charlie Sheen, a very tiny role for Johnny Depp.

The madness? It is there.
The ruthless Hollywood optimism? Also, slightly so, but I must admit I feel like mr Stone added that because he desperately wants to believe in it. Like the soldier almost going home, three days before R&R, has a bad feeling, thus was this film to him.

What is it with me and war movies lately? I still want to watch Full Metal Jacket (again). And feel like watching Apocalypse Now over and over again. Platoon was good, but it does not match up to Coppola's masterpiece. Is it the intensity of the madness? The plunge? Too slick?

Friday, 8 August 2014

Night Beats - "Puppet on a String" (Night Beats)

A very Cramps psycho/rockabilly 60's sound, but this album is actually from 2011.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

Natalia Kills - "Problem"

Not my kind of song, bit like Britney Spears' "Toxic" but kinda fun.

Perhaps just because of the line "don't you want to save this dirty little damsel"

Sunday, 3 August 2014

Aymara language and the idea of time

Linguistic and gestural analysis by Núñez and Sweetser also asserts that the Aymara have an apparently unique, or at least very rare, understanding of time, and Aymara is, with Quechua, one of very few languages where speakers seem to represent the past as in front of them and the future as behind them. Their argument is situated mainly within the framework of conceptual metaphor, which recognizes in general two subtypes of the metaphor "the passage of time is motion": one is "time passing is motion over a landscape" (or "moving-ego"), and the other is "time passing is a moving object" ("moving-events"). The latter metaphor does not explicitly involve the individual/speaker; events are in a queue, with prior events towards the front of the line. The individual may be facing the queue, or it may be moving from left to right in front of him/her.
The claims regarding Aymara involve the moving-ego metaphor. Most languages conceptualize the ego as moving forward into the future, with ego's back to the past. The English sentences prepare for what lies before us and we are facing a prosperous future exemplify this metaphor. In contrast, Aymara seems to encode the past as in front of individuals, and the future in back; this is typologically a rare phenomenon.
The fact that English has words like before and after that are (currently or archaically) polysemous between 'front/earlier' or 'back/later' may seem to refute the claims regarding Aymara uniqueness. However, these words relate events to other events, i.e., are part of the moving-events metaphor. In fact, when before means in front of ego, it can only mean future. For instance, our future is laid out before us while our past is behind us. Parallel Aymara examples describe future days as "qhipa uru", literally 'back days', and these are sometimes accompanied by gestures to behind the speaker. The same applies to Quechua speakers, whose expression "qhipa p'unchaw" corresponds directly to Aymara "qhipa uru". Possibly, the metaphor is that the past is visible to us (in front of our eyes), while the future is not.

Thursday, 31 July 2014

Lawless (2012)

Amazing film about a family - the Bondurants - defying law and all when brewing and selling moonshine all over the Franklin county and beyond. Harsh, in your face, an amazing soundtrack, and a cool story.

Good acting. Good writing, most of all.

Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Beck & Warby Parker presents "Song Reader"

Score album by Beck, sung by various people.

  • Heaven's Ladder: definitely should listen to this one again
  • The Last Polka
  • Old Shanghai
  • Why Did You Make Me Care
  • Americ Here's My Boy
  • We All Wear Cloaks - must be Jack Black, very theatrical
  • Do We We Do - folk

Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Valeria Luiselli - "Sidewalks"

"If there is an infinite aspect to space," writes Joseph Brodsky, "it is not its expansion, but its reduction. If only because the reduction of space, oddly enough, is always more coheren. It's better structured and has more names: a cell, a closet, a grave." 

The outcome of a long-awaited first meeting is often disappointing. The same is true of an encounter with a dead person, except that there's no need to hide the disappointment: in that sense, a dead person is always more agreeable than a living one."

It is a thin, amazing book of essays. Very well suited when travelling or walking through a city, even one so familiar. Do not read it fast. Take your time. Stare out of the window. Read a few more sentences. Read them again, your thoughts wandered the last six words or so. I don't agree with every observation she makes, but most are breath taking.

Monday, 28 July 2014

the Grand Budapest Hotel

As per usual, a wonderful tale by Wes Anderson. Slapstick humour - in the best way - and fairytale visuals with a light, dancing story.

Watching his films makes me want to write. Nothing deep, nothing dark, simply butterfly feet and raindrop moments.

Inspired by the writings of Stefan Zweig. Will have to look him up.

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Digital Daggers - "The Devil Within"

The chorus is a bit too processed and stuffed, but the mood inbetween is cool.

Blair Crimmins - "A Demon Like Me"

swinging, sassy, New Orleans.

Sunday, 13 July 2014

Repetition in rethorics

A diacope is a rethoric term meaning repetition: "my horse, my horse, a kingdom for my horse," or simply "Bond, James Bond"

An epizeuxis is the repetition of a word or phrase in immedate repetition: O horror, horror, horror [Macbeth]

tmesis: interruption of a word or phrase by another word or phrase: unbe-fucking-lievable

Waterfalls - "What is French for Oswald"

Instrumental, folk influences along with ambient trip guitars.

Heard in some neuroscience "what is science" film on Aeon Films. Currently only on bandcamp it seems.

Saturday, 12 July 2014

peroration

the concluding part of a speech, typically intended to inspire enthusiasm in the audience.

John Crowley - "Ægypt"

"When he was very small he had been told the story of the man who was caught in a rainstorm and sought shelter in an old barn. He fell asleep in the hayloft, and when he woke it was deep midnight. He saw, walking on the rafters of the barn, a clowder of cats; they would walk the rafters and meet, and seem to pass a message. Then two cats met on a rafter very near where he lay hidden, and he heard one say to the other: "Tell Dildrum that Doldrum is dead." And so they parted. When the man got home that day, he told his wife what had happened, and what he had heard the cats say: "Tell Dildrum that Doldrum is dead." And on hearing that, their old family cat, dozing by the fire, leaped up with a shriek and cried out: "Then I'm to be king of the cats!" And it shot up the chimney, and was never seen again.
That story had made him shiver and wonder, and ponder for days; not the story that had been told, but the secret story within it that had not been told: the story about the cats, the secret story that had been going on all along and that no one knew but they."

Crowley has a manner of interrupting the thoughts of his characters as if he is literally following their thoughts. Also, probably related, he does not fear to repeat words and sentences. Cool technique.

The premise, or one of its premises; how outside our thoughts, our dreams, the layers of our myths, lies the cold, real world. A world bereft of dreams and thoughts. How perhaps these two worlds, ours and the physical world, are not so different after all. The universe: a safe with a combination lock, the combination hidden inside itself. But aren't we part of the universe's dust. Isn't the combination inside us, inside our stories, and the stories hiding underneath our stories?

"Renaissance ... all their scholarship, all their learning, was bent towards re-creating as best they could the past in the present, because the past had necessarily been better, wiser, less decayed than the present. And so the older an old manuscript was, the older the knowledge it contained, the better it must turn out to be, once it had been cleansed of the accretions and errors of later times: the closer to the old Golden Age."

from the introduction: "The past is a foreign country: they do things differently there." [LP Hartley's novel "The Go-Between"]

"'It seems ... that what grants meaning in folktales and legendary narratives ... is not logical development so much as thematic repetition, the same idea or events or even the same objects recurring in different circumstances, or different objects contained in similar circumstances. ... A hero sets out ... to find a atreasure, or to free his beloved, or to capture a castle or find a garden. Every incident, every adventure that befalls him as he searches is the treasure or the beloved, the castle or the garden, repeated in different forms, like a set of nesting boxes - each of them however just as large, or no smaller, than all the others. The interpolated stories he is made to listen to only tell him his own story in another form. The pattern continues until a kind of certainty arises, a satisfaction that the story has been told often enough to seem at last to have been really told. ... Plot, logical development, conclusions prepared for by introductions, or inherent in a story's premises - logical completion as a vehicle of meaning - all that is later, not necessarily later in time, but belonging to a later, more sophisticated kind of literature. There are some interesting half-way kind of works, like  The Fairy Queene, which set up for themselves a titanic plot, an almost mathematical symmetry of structure, and never finish it: never need to finish it, because they are at heart works of the older kind, and the pattern has already arisne satisfyingly within them, the flavor is already there.'"

Bill Bryson - "the mother tongue - english and how it got that way"

The Cree Indian language has a special that [for] things just gone out of sight, while Ilocano, a tongue of the Philippines, has three words for this referring to a visible object, a fourth for things not in view and a fifth for things that no longer exist.
[The Story of Language]

"An earlier meaning of prove was to test, which makes "the exception proves the rule" suddenly make sense."

"The names of Britain's 70.000 or so pubs cover a broad range, running from the inspired to the imporbable, from the deft ot the daft. Almost any name will do so long as it is at least faintly absurd, unconnected with the name of the owner, and entirely lacking in any suggestion of drinking, conversing, and enjoying oneself. At a minimum the name should puzzle foreigners - this is a basic requirement of most British institutions - and ideally it should excite long and inconclusive debate, defy all logical explanation, and evoke images that border on the surreal. ... the present quirky system dates mostly from the Middle Ages, when it was deemed necessary to provide travelers, most of them illiterate, with some sort of instantly recognizable symbol."

It's a fun book, but entire chapters are dedicated to summing up examples of something strange or illogical, groundless claims are based (the Dutch preferring their "almost invariably palpably inferior" shows to British shows... Maybe, but can we have some sort of example that shows how Dutch shows are invariably palpably inferior?

onomastics: the study of names.

Ludovico Einaudi - "Uno"

A haunting sound of classical piano and soft electronic accents.

via http://8tracks.com/cephalopodface/a-future-prometheus

Friday, 11 July 2014

The Caretaker - "Patience (After Sebald)"

Instrumental, the hiss of old records, dulled piano sounds, ambient noises.

Interesting.

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

Maybeshewill - "Not For Want Of Trying"

typical post rock song but with a cool rant right in the middle.